It's been a long time coming but my time in court is finally here. I've seen the paperwork to let me know that a decision will be made shortly. The highest judicial power in the land will make a binding judgement that all sides will have to accept as law and abide by it. For me to lose the case the other side will have to prove that i have zero mental capacity. I have to show that i don't. It should be a straightforward matter. Somehow, i don't think it will be. SALT have used dirty tactics for years to get their own way and i can't see them stopping now.
I just want the right to make decisions for myself and not have them made for me. My mind is working perfectly. The ability to speak and walk has been taken away from me and there's nothing i could've done about that. I had a fucking stroke for heaven's sake. What it hasn't done is taken away my ability to communicate. Or to read. If the court's decision is to agree that my rights were fairly taken away my faith in the judicial system will have taken a severe battering.
What more does a severely disabled person (or anybody else, for that matter) have to do to be recognised as a human being in a life that is filled with pain? It's okay to say "we know how you feel". That's one thing but to know that someone accepts for what you are is another matter altogether. It's the difference between a soup you buy from Lidl and one you get from Harrods. I want to know why i have to have brown bread instead of white bread? Nobody has ever told me and i don't suppose they ever will.
Is it a killer? I don't think it is, In fact i know it isn't. I doubt whether SALT know that. Even if they did it wouldn't make a difference.
SALT aren't my favourite people by any means and i know i'm not theirs. Everyday is a battle with them. They tell me what food i can't have - even though i've had it a hundred times before. They really are the most annoying people i've ever met in my life and you find yourself being tested for the same food twice.