There are many problems with disability that I’ve faced...
There are many problems that i have to face. There are many times that Muhammed Ali must have wondered how much tougher it could be though. Life isn’t easy. Other people have faced uphill struggles and have come out of it the other side. Something, don’t ask me what, is making a better person of me. I just knoe i have a better outlook on life and can see what i’ve had to achieve to get where i am today. How this helps me is another subject. I don’t know.I know that it has though.
if i can still raise a smile when things are going against me i must be doing something right. I have a million questions i want to ask but the truth is unfolding right in front of my eyes. There is only one truth i want to know and that is am i doing the right thing now? I’ve made made so many mistakes in the past that all i can do - and it’s killing me - is to go over them ad infinitum. I’ve got enough on my plste as it is. Mandy has got a good attitude in that nothing seems to worry her. If only i can learn from her.
in the years to come this will all be over. In the meantime i have new challenges to face and i must put Mandy’s and Jonny’s feelings ahead of my own. I can see that now. One day i won’t even have to think about it like that .it’ll just come to me naturally. Many other people have faced adversity. I’m not the only one. There are many things i’ve achieved. I mustn’t forget that. Even if the road ahead is a rocky one it will all be worth it in the end.
i can live only one day at a time. The good thing is that i’ve got all the time in the world. I don’t know what the future will bring. It can’t be worse than the past.
There are plenty of people who can do what i’ve done.it would be wrong to say they couldn’t. It’s like a marathon runner. A test of endurance. I’ve had lots of practice of that in the past. Endurance not marathon runninig.
I sometimes wonder, if my ability to walk hadn’t been taken away, if i could run a marathon. It’s something i’ll never know. And it’s something i don’t worry about really. Everything happens for a reason .
I’ve accepted the fact that there are a lot of things i can’t do now that i used to be able to. Life isn’t what it used to be. Life isn’t about me anymore.