If you’re stuck in hospital watching a clock, then you’ve hit rock bottom. It can happen to anyone and at any time. I remember what it was like for me and i wouldn’t wish it on anybody. It takes powers of skill and endurance to do it. It can be done. Watching a clock for hour after hour sounds an easy thing to do. It can be. it can be the making of you too. While the whole world carries on without you, you get lost in your own thoughts. You’re taken miles away to a new life. A life of peace and tranquility. A quarter past three soon becomes half past four in your new world.
I’ve been there so many times that i don’t let it bother me anymore. The cooks gave me a meal that nearly choked me, on Thursday. I give up. I don’t have a life that’s worth living anymore and I can think of lots of things to mull over. Having a clockface keep me company is nothing new. I’ve had it all my life. Having one keep me awake in a bedroom is a relatively new experience. At least i know the time and haven’t allowed for it to get light to guess the time like I have done in the past.
You can never get bored with a clock in the room to keep you company, though. You get bored waiting but never get bored with a clock. It’s a friend you can rely on. Once you get used to it you can wait for two hours at a time. I wait for two hours to charge my ipad up. The mind becomes used to it. When i was in hospital, the clock became my greatest friend. I remember staring out of the window at The Royal Infirmary in Leiicester, looking at the buildings i could see. It changed from early morning to being early night. If you just think how lucky you are, you’ll believe it.
Being alone in a room can give you a positive outlook on life. That’s all you need to remember. If i can do it then so can you. Not only have i been put through this, others have too and shown that they will survive. It’s basic hardship training for others. I’m reminded of how Chris Ryan would have dealt with the situation if he ever came across it. The former SAS man would’ve laughed at the challenge. It’s not that you have to be a ‘tough’ guy to achieve it, because you don’t.
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ReplyDeleteI am not a clock watcher, but certainly go to a lot of places in the solitude of my head. Sometimes safe places, sometimes the opposite.
The thing about time is that it passes with unfeeling certainty and regularity. It passes no matter what we do or don't do. Watching the second hand sweep around or even watching the minute hand tick ahead assures us that time has not stopped, even if it feels like it has.
ReplyDeleteI hope that you are not still in the hospital. Having a clock in your hospital room was a good thing for you. I'm not a clock watcher when I work because I love being busy but I'm a clock watcher when I have to wait idle with nothing to do. I need something to do, even if it's just reading a book.
ReplyDeleteI hope your day is going better today.
Hugs, Julia
I have learned this about time in my work. When a woman is in labour, I can spend many hours doing nothing, just watching the clock and the light through the window. I am in my own head but also present with her, not bored, not even really feeling as though I'm waiting but just sitting. I would never have thought I could do it but it's kind of meditative
ReplyDeleteI'm not always aware of the clock ticking. Sometimes it is a friend and sometimes it isn't. I find the ticking sound quite meditative when I notice it. And then I get caught up in my own thoughts.
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