I've been disabled for four years. It's a tough life, but living has always been a struggle for me. I've got a wife and son. They must have thought they deserve better than be stuck with someone like me. I've made mistakes in my life, but i wish i hadn't because it torments me. I only hope the future is different to the past. I'm reminded of the song "How do you sleep at night?" which keeps me awake at night on most occasions So not only do i suffer with pain in the mornings, but i find it hard to sleep.
Add to that the nightmare that is SALT and you understand how depressing it is to be me. SALT (speech and language therapy) are the people that decide wat i can and cannot eat. I don't agree with them and wish (just once) they would justify their actions and get a judgement right. Every week they find something new to ban me from and i wonder why.
Things are really bad for me and i don't know of anyone who could put up with what i have to and on a regular basis too. How i manage to get through each day truly amazes me.
I should be encouraged to do better than i am doing, but everyday i face a wall of disapproval. The deprivation of liberties team should be fighting my corner, but they don't. I have to fight for myself and i can hardly talk. Talk about being left alone. I have and they don't care less that i have. There are so many things wrong with the system and some poor bastard is going to be left alone to face it.
I am so very sorry. I really, really hope that things DO get better for you. Disapproval makes an already hard life even harder.
ReplyDeleteHugs.
Don't be sorry, EC. It's ok.
DeleteI'm so sorry that you have all these going on in your life. Write a book...a memoir about what is all happening. I know someone who can help you edit and publish it.
ReplyDeleteMaybe I will, one day.
DeleteI guessed that you had returned to blogging Terry - because you commented very briefly on my blog yesterday. Welcome back sir! In this post I recognise your fighting spirit. At least when you have that you know you are still very much alive. Love the pink baackground design - like an actress's boudoir!
ReplyDeleteYP- I'm not really back blogging. I've made 3 posts in 3 months, but thank you anyway. It's nice to see how other people are doing after all this time away.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear about the dietary restrictions. I suppose they think they are trying to keep you safe. It drove my dad nuts when he was given pureed meats but whole green beans. Why ruin the meat and then give him vegetables he could choke on? It made no sense.
ReplyDeleteHi Jenny, nothing they do seems to make any sense.
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