Sunday, June 9, 2019

I’m 59 and disabled. I don’t care what happens to me. I’ve been through a lot. If you say, ‘well so have I’, i’ll ask if you’re disabled like me. If you aren’t, then the discussion will end there and then. Being disabled has been the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I had a dream last night that I had cancer and was going to die.

I wasn’t worried at all.  I thought i’d done my best and would take it as i’ve taken everything else in life. A bit of pain never hurts me and a lot of it will soon go away. Bargain!  Disability is as bad as that. Dying doesn’t really bother me because my belief lets me know that better times are ahead.
‘What do you want to eat?’ said a carer.

 ‘Mashed potato and carrots’, I replied ‘mushy peas and fish fingers’. ‘Okay that’s for lunch’ she said. ‘That’s for every meal this week’ I replied. She looked at me as if she didn’t think I’d mean it. i did. Being disabled means you can put up with anything. Even certain death.

I’m not being brave. Who knows what that is? Honesty rules my life. Somebody once said to me: ‘You’re lucky to be alive’ I looked at them up and down and said ‘are you fucking serious?’


  1. People do say some really silly things don't they? Really, really silly.

  2. What Elephant's Child said. People often don't think before they open their mouths and let the words out.

  3. Some people don't think before their open their mouths. It must be awfully uncomfortable with their foot in the mouths all the time!!


I don’t know a lot of things and my memory has seen better times.  We can’t know everything that is going to happen, but everything does fo...