It’s an ordinary day

When you can’t walk and you can’t talk you have no choice but to live the kind of existance that i’ve been living for the past six years. People will say that i CAN talk but that’s a debatable point. I have to repeat myself sometimes it’s up to fourteen times before i’m fully understood! Remind me again that i can talk. It’s so frustrating and it really gets on my nerves. There are lots of things that do, though. Everyday i have to battle so that people know what i’m saying and it’s getting harder to do so. I have bought a machine that helps out and I really enjoy making it swear.

Every day starts at quarter past seven for me. I drink a large beaker of thickened water at 8am.it has to be thickened or else i die. If the water is too thin it goes staight into my lungs and i drown. I can’t be saved, unfortunately. At some point in the day i suffer from depression and i cry. People ask me why and i tell them i don’t know.and i don’t. Why do people always assume there’s a reason. There isn’t and I just wish i was left well alone. It’s an ordinary day for me.

Dads

Mandy gets all soppy when she talks about her dad. You can understand that i suppose, but not all dads are the same. Her dad must have thought that she was something really special to treat her the way he did. He died before i knew him, which is a shame. My own dad is alive. I.wonder how he’d react if i really needed him to do me a favour. It just goes to show that some dads will move heaven and earth for their kids and some dads won’t.

Dads aren’t always around when we need them. Mandy misses her dad but no matter how much she loves him - and she does - he won’t be coming back. It makes me think if i’ll be the same. Of course i will. We all miss somebody when they go.

When you thought you’d done enough...

This is a picture of Tyson Fury. Like me, he suffers from mental health problems. Getting himself fit for this fight has been all he needed to stop wanting to kill himself. Only people who have mental health issues will know what that feels like. Mental Health can make you act rather odd at times, and you don’t always care what anyone thinks of you when that happens.

When it first happened to me i didn’t know what was wrong. I didn’t know what it was called and i thought i was the only only one who had it. I don’t know how many people have it but it’s a lot. Fury was denied the comeback of all-time when the judges for his fight ruled that it was a draw. It was a very controversial points decision and is probably the reason why most fighters don’t like to fight in the United States.

Fury’s story is quite remarkable. He lost 10 stone to get himself fit to face the WBC champion, Deontay Wilder. If he can do it, it can be done, is the positive message it sends out.